punana's afternoon preparations

Our punana offered itself to me several days ago and today is the day I will accept that offer. The session is less than an hour away and I thought it would be good to do some "pre-game commentary", as it were.

I have been off on other projects these last few months and haven't posted or written much. Things have not lightened up for me much and I don't expect my activity level to significantly change, but the punana's offer intrigued me.

Why?

Our punana has been part of the Circle longer than an other submissive. Her/it's devotion is unquestioned and its obedience is absolute. When she initially presented herself - a fan of my writing who sought to make her fantasies real - she was clearly an intelligent, highly motivated married woman who wanted to explore things she couldn't explore at home. Her dedication to H is commendable and her desire to bring some of her own fantasies into the bedroom attracted me. If only every man had such a woman! Not merely in terms of submissiveness and obedience, but in terms of wanting to "play" in the bedroom. To explore the limits of each other's bodies, of each other's desires. I haven't been in contact with many people who are in couples like that.

Over the course of the last two years or so, she has crossed so many boundaries, violated so many taboos, submitted herself to so many of the whims and fancies of various members of the Circle one cannot help but look forward to the next session. The limits of her depravity are yet to be found and her desire to please is boundless.

Which leads to today.

I need a break. I have been working hard, juggling too many real life responsibilities, commitments, and duties. There are other submissives in the Circle with whom I could find relief, the punana's timing happened to be perfect.

But, enough singing the praises of the lowest of the low! Corollary to what I wrote above is the plain and simple fact that this is a mature, attractive woman who has lowered herself to the level of an "it" and is presenting itself to me for any type of experience I choose.

And, while I find Leigh much more attractive and intelligent (and possibly even more willing to submit to anything I propose), Anne much easier to shame and humiliate, and Tiffany a much better bed partner, the punana's timing just happened to be right.

Such are the vagaries of life!