a punana; an apology

During its training by The Circle, a punana has been made to understand its low status and that it must show respect to all. However, before its training a punana had not understood the need for it to show this respect. a punana has been instructed to write an apology for any disrespect it may have shown before it became enlightened as to its true status.

Ladies and Gentlemen of The Circle,

Over the last fifteen months that a punana has been controlled and trained by The Circle, it has been made to understand its status in life. a punana now knows that it is sub-human; an animal, and not even an upper animal like a dog or a cat. No, a punana belongs among the lower animals; it should be crawling on the ground with the worms and bugs.

As such, a punana knows that it must display respect to all of a higher status; all Ladies and Gentlemen, including other slaves and submissives and all upper animals; dogs, cats, horses etc.

As a part of a punana showing appropriate respect, it understands that the pleasure of all others must be its first priority; in particular its Husband, H, and all members of The Circle, again, this includes the slaves and submissives of The Circle. Any pleasure or pain experienced by a punana while providing this pleasure to others is of no importance.

However, a punana did not always behave in this way. Before coming under the control of The Circle and being re-educated, a punana definitely had submissive tendencies. But it now understands that a punana used this submissiveness as a means of experiencing pleasure itself.

For this a punana humbly apologises to every Lady and Gentleman who a punana failed to show respect by putting Their pleasure as its paramount priority.

a punana became sexually active at the age of sixteen; it gave its first blow-job shortly after its sixteenth birthday and its first cunt-fucking came a few weeks later. But the very use of the expression ‘gave a blow-job’ illustrates what was wrong with a punana at that time. What a punana should have done, in order to show respect, was not to give a blow-job but to orally worship the cock that was presented to it.

Further, at that time, although a punana was considered pretty, it was tall and lanky with a flat chest. As a consequence, a punana now understands that it was using sex as a means of courting popularity with boys; or Young Gentlemen as a punana should properly refer to Them.

In addition, a punana, at least in part sucked and fucked because it enjoyed it. a punana’s enjoyment is, of course, totally immaterial.

For not displaying the correct respect to all those Young Gentlemen, a punana most abjectly apologises.

Then while at university, a punana would be critical of other girls… Young Ladies, especially those who a punana saw as rivals. a punana would find something to find fault with even the most attractive Young Lady. Sometimes these comments would be made to the Young Lady, sometimes it would comment behind Her back or maybe it was an unspoken thought.

Whichever, a punana was disrespectful by word or thought which it now understands is unacceptable from such a low creature towards its betters and a punana unreservedly apologises to all those Young Ladies.

Also while a university, a punana persuaded several Young Gentlemen and one Young Lady to spank its ass, all at different times. With the Young Gentlemen, They all hand spanked a punana for a short time before turning it over and fucking a punana. This would leave a punana frustrated and resentful as it had wanted to experience a proper hard spanking.

Of course, a punana now knows that what it wanted didn’t matter; the pleasure of the Young Gentlemen was all that mattered and a punana would like to beg for forgiveness from each of the Young Gentlemen for even thinking that a punana’s desires counted for anything.  

a punana would particularly like to apologise to the Young Lady that a punana had a relationship with. She was clearly not comfortable when a punana persuaded Her to administer twenty strokes with a belt to its ass. while a punana loved every stroke it now realises that the Young Lady’s feeling were all important and a punana begs Her forgiveness for putting its needs and desires before Hers.

These are just a few examples of a punana not putting the pleasure of others before its own needs and desires. it acknowledges that this kind of behaviour and way of thinking is totally unacceptable from a punana, which only exists for the pleasure of others.

Again, a punana wishes to apologise most sincerely to all who have received less than the absolute respect from a punana that Their superior status deserves.

Since coming under the control of The Circle some fifteen months ago, a punana has been made to understand its true status and that it exists only to obey and provide pleasure for others. Also, it now understands that every human, Gentleman or Lady, is so superior to a punana and deserving of total respect.

a punana wishes to thank all the members of The Circle for making a it understand its true nature. In particular, it wishes to thank the more active members; Sir David, Sir John, Tiffany, Mistress Addison, Master Joe and Master Jack.

They have been most skilful in peeling away the layers which disguised a punana as a human woman and revealing the lower animal that a punana truly is.

No disrespect is meant towards Tiffany; She has instructed a punana that She wishes to be addressed in that way; without a title.

a punana no longer gives blow-jobs or sucks cock, now it worships and adores Master H’s cock whenever it is honoured to be allowed to do so. When that magnificent cock is presented to a punana it becomes the centre of a punana’s universe; nothing else matters than to give pleasure to Master H and His beautiful cock. Of course, the idea of spitting out Master H’s precious cum never even enters a punana’s head; to even think of doing so would be the ultimate disrespect.

a punana also freely offers its ass to Master H for His pleasure, even actively encouraging Master H to use that fuck-hole; but only if that is what He wants. a punana’s needs, desires and its pleasure and suffering are totally irrelevant.

a punana sincerely hopes that it has displayed its contrition for any past disrespect, that it has shown that it has learned its lesson and that it now knows its place.

a punana

Chat with punana

We just finished a 90+ minute IRC chat with the punana. Addie was able to make it and put the punana through its paces. I'll work on formatting the chat log and getting it posted. We had a few random folks drop into the channel to watch, a dom and a couple of subs. They chose not to participate but to watch, which made it easier to keep things organized.

One main feature of the chat was the punana's new nipple suction devices. David had her go out and buy a set yesterday and we put them to good use this morning. Keep that in mind in case you are able to make the next chat. They seemed to have quite an effect on the punana.

Upcoming Chat

Given the limitations of everyone's RL obligations, it's rare that we have the ability to actually schedule a chat. The ones that happen are usually 'catch as catch can'.

This weekend we have a rare opportunity for as many members as possible to engage in a chat with David and the punana.

The chat is scheduled for 2p in the UK. UK is currently on BST, so you'll need to do the calculations for your time zone.

The chat will be held in IRC. If you don't have a client, I highly recommend Chatzilla, which is an easy-to-install plugin to the Firefox browser (Tools->Add-Ons)

Anyone who's interested in attending, post a comment and I'll give you the channel name.

If you can't attend but you have suggestions, please feel free to post them and I'll see what I can do. The chat log will be made available as soon as possible afterwards.

a punana; report to The Circle dated 30/05/2012

a punana had been chastised by Sir David and Sir John for sloppiness in an earlier communication to Them. it replied;

Sir David and Sir John

a punana grovels at Your feet, begging for forgiveness for its bad behaviour. it thought only to avoid repetition but it now sees the error of its ways and accepts its punishment. By the usual way, a punana meant wiping its cunt with its fingers, not paper, but now knows that it should have been clear on this.

So, after playing with its tits and nipples before getting out of bed – pulling and twisting them, a punana went downstairs and squatted down with its nipples just resting on the dining table. it moved up and down so that its nipples flicked against the edge of the table. With its nipples already sensitive and hard from being played with, it did not take long for its cunt to get wet and for a punana to want to touch itself. It paused, took a deep breath and did it another 10 times. Doing this felt… it hurt a little but the friction on its sensitive nipples left it really, really horny. A punana wanted to touch itself so, so much.

Instead, a punana went to the bathroom to piss. it pushed a finger of its left hand into its ass – an awkward and humiliating position- while it pissed. Then it pushed two fingers of its right hand into its wet cunt and then cleaned them with its mouth. When it finished pissing, it wiped its cunt with its fingers and cleaned them in its mouth. Only then did it remove the finger from its ass.

a punana then showered and dressed for work.

a punana will repeat these actions later in the day and will also follow Your instruction regarding next time a punana sucks Husband’s cock.

Again, a punana begs Your forgiveness for its bad attitude.

a punana

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a punana; carrots

As Sir David instructed, a punana obediently bought a bag of baby carrots from the supermarket at the weekend.

Now, at just before 6 p.m. on Monday, opened the bag, closed its eyes and randomly picked out one of the carrots. a punana was in the kitchen preparing the evening meal for when H would get home from work in about 15 minutes time, it was dressed in a short skirt and T-shirt.

Bending slightly, it reached behind, one hand raising its skirt and pulling aside the narrow strip of material that was the back of its thong. The other hand located the target of a punana’s ass-hole and easily pushed the carrot fully in.

a punana remembered how, at one time, even such a small invader would have been uncomfortable; painful even. But now, after months of training by The Circle, its ass was stretched and ready and eager for H’s cock so this small carrot slipped in with no problem.

Re-arranging its clothing, a punana washed its hands and continued to prepare the food. It was not at all unpleasant having the carrot in its ass; in fact, the feeling was good but it kept a punana constantly aroused and H said several time as W/we ate and later watched television that a punana appeared distracted.

Well yes, a punana was distracted.

Finally, at 9, a punana excused itself, went to the bathroom and pushed the carrot out.

Later, in bed, a punana suggested that H might want to fuck it in the ass but He preferred a blow-job. At least He didn’t want a cuntfuck – that would have meant that a punana couldn’t come. As it was, a punana slid down the bed and gave oral worship to H’s lovely cock while rubbing itself; it came seconds before receiving the gift of H’s delicious spunk. As always now, a punana finished by kissing H’s cock and thanking Him for the gift of His cum.

On Tuesday, H went out with some of His friends and a punana used the time to mark some school work but a punana found it very difficult to concentrate; it needed an ass-fuck, and a punana never believed that would ever happen, it used to hate anal but right then an ass-fucking was all it wanted.

But a punana knows that when H goes out with His friends all He wants when He gets home is to sleep.

On Wednesday, after a punana had pushed out the carrot at 9 p.m. it went and sat on H’s lap and whispered that it was feeling randy. H responded straight away; it could feel His cock harden against its thigh. W/we went up to bed and a punana asked – begged almost – for H to fuck its ass. H has developed a liking for anal and He agreed. So a punana stripped, got on the bed on knees and elbows ready for Him.

As H banged away, a punana reached back and masturbated, cumming just as H shot His load into its ass. a punana went to the bathroom to clean itself, using its finger to wipe up the cum as it trickled out and then sucking its fingers clean. Then it went to clean H’s cock, using tissues – a punana cannot yet bring itself to use its mouth to clean H’s cock after anal. But after cleaning with the tissues, a punana did kiss His cock and remembered to thank Him for a wonderful fuck. 

On Thursday, H was late home from work due to having to travel. a punana obediently had  a carrot in its ass for the required 3 hours and was again aroused and in need of an ass-fuck. However, when H eventually arrived home, He wanted only a glass of wine with His meal and He was ready for bed to sleep, so a punana went to bed feeling frustrated.

Friday evening is usually pub time. So, after eating, W/we set off to walk the short distance with a punana wearing a carrot in its ass. Walking kept the carrot moving just slightly but this meant that it was constantly on a punana’s mind and a punana was fidgety for the next two hours until 9 o’clock when a punana slipped out to the ladies room and pushed out the carrot.

a punana was aroused all evening, especially from the humiliation of having the carrot in while in public, amongst its friends. Back at home, a punana could hardly wait to take out H’s lovely cock and orally worship it while fingering its cunt and it was rewarded with a lovely cum and a mouthful of H’s delicious spunk. Oh, a punana just can’t get enough of His pearly nectar.

a punana; report 29/05/2012

Sir David and Sir John

a punana noted the changes to its regime and, this morning, it played with its tits and nipples, pulling, pinching and twisting its nipples, getting them really hard. it had to stop itself from slipping a hand down to its cunt; it wanted so much to finger itself.

This morning, when a punana pissed, it pushed 2 fingers in its cunt when it had finished, it sucked its fingers and then wiped as usual. This was repeated the twice more that it has pissed so far today.

Yes Sir, steel wool is available here, either as pan scourers from any supermarket or big packs of heavy duty stuff from DIY stores.

a punana

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leigh: introduction by Thi ca chi

To the Circle:

Received from Thi ca chi regarding her new submissive "leigh". (For those of you who have been around the Circle, the "Thi ca chi" account has shifted owners. The prior "Thi ca chi" was a submissive who has moved on. The new "Thi ca chi" is a dominant woman.)


My name is Thi, and I want to describe how I came upon this pathetic creature "leigh."

About a year ago, I went to see my little brother.  He had pledged a fraternity, and there was a big party on his campus to celebrate.  I wanted to get there early, so I could leave early.  But, there was a traffic jam and I didn't get there until 11.  The place was a mess, with empty liquor bottles and smashed beer cans littering every spot.  There were a lot of drunk people stumbling around.

I tried to find my brother, but I couldn't.  I heard cheers coming from one of the back rooms, and I followed the noise.

I thought I had seen a lot of things, but this shocked even me. There was a college-aged white girl there on all fours, wearing a pig snout, and nothing else.  Someone had taken red lipstick and written "pig" on her forehead.  She was grunting like some kind of animal, and she was having sex with guy after guy after guy.  Her hands would reach out and she would jerk guys off.  One guy was laying under her, another behind her, fucking her pussy and ass at the same time.  Some guys grabbed at her dangling tits, and one after another, they would have her suck their cocks, and they would all cheer as they shot their cum all over the girl's face.

I was shocked.  I couldn't believe that this girl was allowing herself to be used that way.  It was so debasing, and yet, there she was, smiling while at least a dozen guys used her body... including my brother.  He didn't see me, but I watched him gleefully push his dick in her ass, grab her hips and go to town.

I turned and left... I didn't want to see anymore.  The girl must have been a hooker, to do that... but curiosity got to me, so I waited in my car for her to come out of the frat house.  About an hour later, she emerged, holding her shoes in her hand as she walked slowly and unevenly across the parking lot.

Gone was the snout, and the lipstick had been smeared, but was still visible.

I got out and approached her.

"Excuse me," I asked as she passed by.

She turned and smiled at me, raising her eyebrows. "Yes?"

I stammered, looking for the right words.  I finally spit them out, "OK, so... how much money did you get for that business back at the frat house?"

She looked at me as if the question confused her.

"How much do you get paid for.. well... you know...doing all those guys?"

This time she laughed.

"You think I got paid for all that?" She looked at me, grinning from ear to ear.  "Lady, I didn't get paid a nickel.  My pay was the many, many orgasms I had tonight, not to mention the satisfaction of having brought physical pleasure to... well... I am not sure how many guys."

I was shocked.  She wasn't a whore?  She just fucked a whole fraternity, and did it because she liked fucking.

She smiled at me, "Look, I love fucking, I love sucking, and if you'd like, I'd be glad to hit my knees, push your skirt up, pull your panties down and lick your pussy."  I couldn't believe what I had just heard.  I mean, I wasn't a prude, but having a gangbang just for the hell of it seemed very strange.

She was still smiling, and before I realized what was going on, she did what she said she'd do.  She quickly pushed my skirt up and pulled my white silk panties down.  She pressed her face against my pelvis, sniffing deeply.  I felt her tongue snake out, licking the entrance to my pussy.

I don't know what came over me.  I had never done anything like this before, but there I was, in a college parking lot, having my pussy licked by a complete stranger.  I couldn't stop it.  There was something about this white girl that I didn't understand.  She seemed to be enjoying it more than me!

I quickly looked around and when I saw no one looking, I let myself go.  I spread my legs open wider and pressed her head tightly against my neatly trimmed pussy.  She knew what she was doing, because in less than five minutes, she had me cumming all over her face.  She looked up at me and smiled, pulling my panties up and fixing my skirt.  She turned and went to leave but I stopped her.  Looking at her, her face glistened in the moonlight, and I blushed in shame, knowing it was my juices.  She hadn't wiped them off.

I told her I would like to stay in contact with her, to learn about why she felt the way she did about sex.

From then on, I got email from her every couple of weeks, telling me in graphic detail about her sexual escapades. I am ashamed to say that after reading them, I would stroke my pussy and make myself cum.

A few months ago, I became concerned with her.  She was getting involved in BDSM, and she was putting herself into dangerous situations.  Risky public sex, sex with strangers, more gangbangs, but now they all involved some degree of pain.  She was really getting into the pain, and so I felt I had a duty to step in.

I thought I was doing an intervention, but I found I was too late.  The beautiful young woman I knew had changed.  She looked part animal, part robot.  She went through the day to day functions of her life like a robot, and then had sex all night like some kind of animal.  She looked so pathetic, like a junkie strung out on heroin.

She took me to her room and showed me all of her sex toys.  I was shocked!  She had enough S&M gear to furnish a full dungeon.

I wanted to do something to help, so she could once again be a respectable member of society. But, I knew I couldn't change her...she needed to want to change. I figured that once she hit rock bottom, then she would see that there was more to life than living to be used and abused.  I told her that I was going to take charge and she would be my... slave or pet or toy... whatever you want to call it.  And I could be there to protect her from being seriously hurt as she got this stuff out of her system.

So far, it has been a disaster.  She just acts more like an animal every day. I had a house party and the little slut crawled in on all fours, naked and tried to hump people's legs. (As I typed that, I started to realize how much I was buying into her fantasy. I'm already finding myself calling her things like "the little slut" and "filthy whore".)

I was shocked, humiliated and angry. It could reflect badly on me, having this girl in my home. I decided the only thing to do was push her to go deeper and deeper, so she would crash and burn, then realize she needed to change. She has to eventually, right?

But, she loves fucking multiple people, men or women... she loves all kinds of pain (she actually cums when being physically abused), she'll have sex with anything that will hold still long enough for her to fuck.  I even caught the little slut watching videos of bestiality, her whole fist shoved up her twat.

Out of despair, I reached out to one of her email contacts.

It was someone named David.  He spoke of a Circle of people... some submissive, some dominant, but they would gather for sexual adventures.

I pleaded for him to help.  She needs to learn that she's got to get off this path or she will be killed by some junkie or one of her random fucks.

I have told David that because she agreed to be my pet, she would follow any instruction I gave her.  I have given David and the rest of the Circle full access to do absolutely anything with this.. well, whatever she is.  No holds barred and anything goes.

And I hope it literally knocks some sense into her head.

leigh: report after session 1

After leigh made it clear she was turned on by pain, we had an online chat. I introduced the idea of using a flyswatter (an innocent enough looking implement) on her thighs. She wrote back the next day:

Oh, I feel the sting of the marks.... the pain in similar to a sunburn. but every time I rub my thighs, I am reminded of you... thinking about how dirty you make me feel and how much I love it!!!  The flyswatter is awesome, and I like having the marks.  I loved the way it sounded when it "whooshed" through the air, before striking my flesh.  I've tried various things for abuse on myself, and it's strange that such a simple item can be so perfect for what I would like.  It's light enough that it doesn't take a lot of strength to wield it, and I'm able to swat myself harder than I could with a paddle or crop.  I'm going to buy a couple the next time I'm out... maybe color coded, so I can have different swatters devoted to different parts of my body...

I would love to feel this way all the time, Sir.... every time I feel my cunt, and the burn coming off of it, I could nearly cum from the waves of pleasure that it sends through me.

I also have to say that I was so hot last night.... embracing the darker ideas... and going places that I haven't gone before... well... I fucked my pussy a few hours ago, and I will confess that I put the hooks in my nose, got on all fours, pushed a butt plug in, and propped pillows up underneath me, with a dildo sitting on it... I started making animal sounds, hearing your voice in my head.... laughing at me and mocking me... calling your friends over to show them how disgusting a piece of fuck meat you had found.... I began to hump the dildo on the pillows... my animal sounds got louder as I embraced being a fuck pig, and I gyrated on the dildo harder, grinding my hips against it, trying to get it inside of me, without using my hands....I felt so... primitive... and it felt soooo fucking good... I held off orgasm for several minutes.... then moved to the floor in front of my mirror... wishing you could see me like that.... my piggie teats hanging down, swinging back and forth with every move... my piggie face, my snout flagrantly displaying the kind of animal I felt like...I knelt in front of the mirror and rocked back and forth, watching my tits sway, the nipples hard little nubs...I reached between my legs and fingered myself, my cunt was so sloppy wet, and it made me snort and grunt in pleasure... I stopped before cumming again... I liked watching myself, because I looked so perverse, so... primitive... I turned so that my ass was facing the mirror, and FUCK.... I wish I had a pig tail on my butt plug... it would have made it just perfect... but I fucked my ass with the plug.... I've been so hungry to have my ass fucked lately that it didn't take long before I was close to orgasm again... So, I set the pillows up on the floor, with the dildo on top of them, and I started at my animal self in the mirror and I started humping.... and grinding...and I started panting...I opened my mouth and let my tongue hang out... and I felt even more like an animal... I went wild... bucking my hips against the pillows, my cunt clenching to get that dildo inside... ..I reached behind me and pulled the plug out of my ass, and I put it in my mouth, sucking on it... as I watched myself do something so depraved....I came... I came so fucking hard... I was practically shrieking, every sound that came out of me sounded like an animal of some kind...I felt so wonderfully debased....and that was one of the best orgasms I have ever had in my life!!!

I just wanted you to know, Sir....

This encouraged me to have more sessions, which I will report on later.

punana: recent update

I received this email from the punana a few nights ago. I'd assigned her the task of masturbating with baby carrots and hadn't heard back for a while. In the meantime, I sent her a link to a caning video on xhamster. She wrote back:


Mr. Aurian, Sir,

thank You for the link. Yes this is the discipline i need and crave.

For Your information, Sir, i have been doing the carrot thing this week and will post a report soon.

d
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Watch for her post on her blog at http://submissivepunanyforh.blogspot.com/

leigh: pain and suffering

Over the last week or so, leigh has entered our Circle as a submissive. She's quite different than the others in that she is heavily into pain and abuse fantasies. Verbal abuse to be sure, but her boundaries for fantasy pain remind me more of the movie Saw than The Story of O. I'm not sure how this will all work out, she's outside the parameters of what the Circle is usually about. And what I'm usually about.

That said, I've found that Tiffany seems to engage in this same kind of play.

I wonder now if it's a gender thing or an age thing (I'm in my late 50s). They're both younger. I'll be watching to see how this all shakes out.

Anyone who's into more violent aspects of this kind of rough play, feel free to add your comments below. I want to understand this better. Where's the edge between "rough sex" and "brutality"?